Sitting at home looking out at the lovely sunny day, no motivation to go out and enjoy the day. One because I'm still not feeling well, I almost passed out at work on Saturday cuz I was so dizzy, I just about fell off my chair a couple of times and was walking and did a drunken stuble into the table! Two because if I go out I will possibly spend the money that I don't have. I already bought a fabulous pair of shoes to make myself feel better and I can't afford to spend anymore.
I am still looking for a full time job but I again don't have a lot of motivation for it. urgh I hate this
I found out that a good friend from high school passed away a few weeks ago and have been in shock and memories have been popping up. He was a fantastic person and a great friend to have. The main memory that keeps popping up is a group of us sitting in his basement watching a movie eating Ketchup chips and then going for a walk in the really windy summer evening.
I was also thinking about the person I was just after high school, how happy-go-lucky I was, how I went out with my friends all the time, how I went to concerts with them and was having a great time. Where did all that go?? I know that we all grow up and grow apart but i don't know how it happened or why you lose touch with people. It's not like there were fights or anamosity between us we just stopped hanging out and talking all the time.
I hope one good thing that will come of this is that I get that piece of me back and I keep in touch with the friends I have now and the friends I have reconnected with.
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